LePellian dictionary? More focus? More sex? More god? More content, less form? More thematic?

Questions here, not a long note, no more pics.

Just what do you readers like to peer into?  I am trying to figure out if this blog might be more catchy if I stay on topic, as it were…focus the content more specifically, more like research, or a set of concentrated essays?  Shall I stick to political and social commentary?  I can do that.  Shall I stick to my own little anecdotes and idiosyncratic observations of the world around me–a small world in many ways.  I can do that.  Shall I talk about sex, dabble the page with some erotica? I can do that. (that’s always compelling, I know.)  I got lots to say about god (small ‘g’).  Shall I stop asking my readers what they’re interested in, and just write write write like I have been doing for years, as part of my practice, my discipline?  I can do that.  In this way, my blog might transform into stranger work—more abstract, more playful, but harder to follow perhaps.

My website is titled, “Inside. Outside. Reflections.”  But I’m considering a change: “Write Here.  Write now.”  These names give me a lot of room to play.

BIG CAVEAT — It’s not that I write just to garner readers and please my audience… believe me, I’ve got thousands of words that are free from that intention.  But if I am going to pursue this more public form, I’m really curious how and why people out there read what they read?  In playwriting, we like to say, “know your audience.”  In fiction, this is bandied about without agreement.  Is it pure curiosity?  Do you search for certain contemporary topics? Of course we do that …the internet is absolutely delicious for our insatiable appetites… 

But this blog is no piece of scholarly research, that’s for sure.  I wouldn’t even use it as a primary source document if I were you, except the primary source document of Rachel LePell’s meandering mind,  her wayward punctuation and syntax.

Mainly, I hope it inspires you to comment…I suppose I might just use good old Facebook, Quora, Twitter, Instagram, even LinkedIn if that was all… but somehow,  I believe this to be different…but maybe it’s not.

I confess to being less cyber- literate than most of you out there in the ether.  I have stayed away from most of the social media platforms for various reasons, but this does leave me a bit bereft as to what and how it all works.

This is a quickie note — I’ll be back no matter what, don’t you worry about that.  I’m not needy, dependent, insecure, fragile… what, me?  ( oh no…) Just genuinely curious.

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When I was 22, a famous theater director Alan Schneider interviewed me for a prestigious grad program.  He asked me, rudely, what was the most important quality that a theater director must have?  I answered in my young enthusiastic manner:  “well, it’s the quality of her perception of the world, I suppose.”  “WRONG!” he sliced back–“it’s his (this is telling) CURIOSITY. Only.  Period. End of statement.”

I think I started crying.

Oooh,  I fumed for 30  years at his cruelty, his rudeness, his pleasure in making me feel totally insignificant.  I couldn’t process What he said, because How he said it was so demeaning.

I have since started to consider his point of view.